She wanted him, he wanted a different him. What did she do?

If you can’t beat ’em join ’em

She loved him but she had to close her eyes to certain facts about secret male homosexuality while she tried to create a new reality

The tool I used to bond with my bisexual significant other was the Craigslist Classified ads section. Even before I started this blog I interviewed people who had experiences I hadn’t, and my friend Ken was a great source of info on the closeted gay male lifestyle. Remember, Ken was first introduced to me by another working girl bc she wanted me to think she was my friend and not see the truth. Which was..? When we were both in jail, OCCC (Called O Triple C for Oahu Community Correctional Center), I wrote grievances for the women. She carried one of the grievances I wrote on her behalf all the way to a $20,000 medical malpractice settlement. I never asked anyone for money, so the fact that she spent it all without sharing didn’t violate a pre-existing agreement. I didn’t know. It’s not like she was going to tell me. But she worried I’d react like she would have if the roles were reversed. To head off the revenge she thought I’d pursue she gave me a client who just wanted to watch fashion shows on YouTube (for real, w/ regularly clothed models.) An easy couple hundred bucks. Her one time gift to me. She never anticipated an ongoing relationship. Neither did we, Ken and I. Ken was surprised that unlike everyone else in the underworld, I didn’t steal from him (!) and I was a great conversationalist. I was just as surprised to find he shared those qualities. We started talking, bonding. He had expressed his interest, not in men-he clarified, but just one part of the guy. No Relationships, no attachments. That was his claim. NSA or No Strings Attached. I bought it, when we first got together. I was intrigued, a fancy way to say I was nosy. Tell me more! Where did he find ideal candidates? Online, of course. The aforementioned ads were full of straight guys seeking other straight guys who would engage in sexual encounters with them, after which they would both still be straight and return to their women. Women who never, ever imagined and who would never hear a confession. To my shock there were rows and rows of ads like this. I never had a reason to look at m4m ads before. There was a world of sexual activity that at times involved people I thought I knew. How many men were on the down low and proving Ben Franklin wrong about the impossibility of liv

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