I went far off the beaten tourist path in Honolulu because I felt regular life and success had failed to save me from the loneliness in my life and the instability of my mind. I thought I should try something different if I wanted to do more than pursue happiness. I wanted to catch it. That is why I saw the introduction of people who did drugs as an opportunity and a chance rather than the beginning of the end of life as I knew it but in a really bad way that was impossible to visualize.