You want an inside view of the thought process of someone who turned to the streets to support her habit. Denial run rampant.
I never lied so much as when I lied to myself. When I was on the streets, jumping in cars with strange men , I told myself I had found a great way to see the island, and get paid to boot! I am not kidding. That was my self talk and I believed myself. My God, it’s a wonder someone so deluded made it out alive. Not everyone survives the insanity if the mind that manifests itself in the insanity if the body.