I wanted to prove my worth to myself bc all the people who told me I wasn’t worth adopting, was only an affirmative action token in college, they convinced me I had something to prove. I don’t have that offer if proof and this blog is about what street life taught me.
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You Smart Enough to answer the following question that won Caroleena the gig as sexy IQ test taker, $50 a test. Answer will follow
Get a Date, Get Paid, Get Dope, Find a Safe place indoors to use the dope, Repeat these steps from the beginning when I ran out. It won’t surprise you to know I had concerns about what I had to do, concerns I addressed with the following prayer and apology. This is what I saidContinue reading “Street Prayer I Said Every Time I Turned to the Street to Get $”
I was obsessed with drugs even in prison when I couldn’t get them and the thoughts were irrational and counterproductive
No drugs? Where’s the joy? I’ll have nothing left. Long term addict and streetwalker “Ivory,” six months before her death at age 48, doubting the wisdom of getting clean. If we are going to live with the relentless obsession about using drugs, if we are going to overcome screaming urges, we need a reason. SomethingContinue reading “Hope, Not A Bottom”
Criminals celebrate Christmas 2019 together in Honolulu, Hawaii, local style.
I can tell you how to get your money back from thieves if you play the players.
How to tslk to your beloved addict successfully
This is a secret audio recording of real talk b an actual drug dealer in Honolulu and you have the chance to eavesdrop on this first effort!
a real life journal entry shows how addiction gave me unexpected companionship that was hard to walk away from.
I was involved in four undercover police stings where cops posed as potential dates and picked me up in their cars. Twice I got away, twice
In Honolulu chances are better than good that we are all connected to each other through shared acquaintances, or friends of friends. There’s an effort to clean out some of the corruption in a local government that is heavily reliant on who you know and who you are related to. It looks like the formerContinue reading “None of my associates are rooting for my success, so they don’t read my blog, and I feel pretty free to write about them while maintaining their anonymity bc they’ll never know. Wait til you hear about the famous criminals I kinda know–”
What a difference two miles makes! Waikiki’s main shopping drag, Kalakaua Avenue, is in the top ten of money making retail streets in the world. Tourists always go there, then venture outwards. Downtown is shocking for its poverty and in-your-face homelessness. Nowadays homelessness is in your face everywhere on Oahu, but I think the touristContinue reading “Fascinating and Specific Details about the Women Working Downtown Honolulu versus Waikiki Streetwalkers”
Let me tell you about smoking crack As you probably could have guessed I never would have done it if I had known that I was actually smoking crack. I wouldn’t have wanted to embrace the stigma, even secretly The people who introduced me to drugs told me I was freebasing cocaine. I asked themContinue reading “Smoking Crack, A Respectable Analysis of the Beginning”
Pursuing Your Addiction is a Surefire Way to Meet People I thought I was lonely and friendless bc of some internal flaw. Maybe. But maybe not. My research shows that in today’s world we spend our time in meaningless sub-social (my word) interactions mediated by a screen. Texting instead of calling. Facebooking people we willContinue reading “HOW ADDICTION EASES LONELINESS”
Find out the unique conditions in Honolulu that made for a long street life for the addiction motivated ex street walker and what she wants to do with her experiences.